Virus mourning*
March 16, 2022
2021 Walk Award
by Timothy Pilgrim
I resolved to cease grieving
once every trace of her was gone.
I donated hats, scarves, skirts, coats,
stowed her perfume, rings, Kindle,
phone. All spring, gathered strands
of hair from sofa, afghan,
chairs, placed each beside her urn.
My plan — heal during summer,
bury everything deep beneath aster,
cosmos, rose. Watch their blossoms
sway final farewell in wind —
until fall, when frost took hold.
But as the winter dark set in,
I stumbled upon her cache.
Vinyl gloves, goggles, masks
breathed my grief to light again.
*Copyright © 2021 by Timothy Pilgrim. Broadside illustrated by Kimberly Wulfestieg.
Poet’s bio:
Timothy Pilgrim’s life-story booklet in sixth grade included his first poem, and since then, over 500 others poems have been accepted by more than 100 different publications. A native of Montana and resident of the Pacific Northwest for all but two years of his life, he loves to garden, hike and snowshoe with his wife, the novelist and former WWU professor, Carolyn Dale. He taught journalism at WWU from 1992 until he retired in 2013 and has published two books of poetry (the latest, Seduced by metaphor: Timothy Pilgrim collected published poems, published in 2021).
“Virus mourning” emerged from a shower of grief — including a long bout over suffering and death of so many during this Covid plague and then the death of his 93-year-old mother-in-law in mid-March. “I’d held it in, and months passed without us being able to visit until shortly before she died a few weeks ago. Then the grieving piqued, and my imagination served up this poetic manifestation.”
Wrong a lot*
October 30, 2016
2016 Walk Award
By Timothy Pilgrim
Lake’s plenty deep, dive off the cliff.
She’s crazy about me. Those jeans
will fit. I’ll be there for her
if the going gets tough. No chance
it will rain, I know when to shut up.
I don’t need directions,
they adore me at work. I’ve studied
enough, no doubt I’ll be rich.
We have plenty of gas,
she doesn’t like gifts. Our love
will survive. We don’t need cash,
I’m sober, can drive. It’s just fine
to speed. I will never get caught.
I know she’ll call, she wouldn’t leave.
I won’t miss her at all.
. . . . .
*Copyright 2016 by Timothy Pilgrim. Broadside illustrated by Mat Hudson.
Breathing Snow*
August 17, 2013
2013 Merit Award
By Timothy Pilgrim
You can do it awhile. Air pockets remain,
locked around ice crystals. But not forever—
just long enough to replay the avalanche
rolling over life, sweeping love downhill,
leaving you flattened in white,
no way to reach for sky. If your ears still hear,
eyes are not frozen closed, hand trapped
near face can clear a bit of space,
you may have sufficient time
to listen for swish of metal probes
slicing nearby, promising beams of light.
If tempted to sleep, imagine
a new lover finds you, scoops a place
by your side, lies close. Together,
you breathe hope into deep snow.
*Copyright 2013 by Timothy Pilgrim. Placard design by Egress Studio. Illustration by Angela Boyle, flyingdodopublications.com.
Painting Lesson*
May 24, 2011
2011 Walk Award
By Timothy Pilgrim
Painting lesson
Onyx spider drawn to spin
from frond on fern to fence,
and back again, lost control
as I thrashed by, let silk out fast,
spiraled wide, around, splashed down
near brush dipped deep
in white paint tin. My ruthless youth,
Genghis Tim to arachnid kin
dunked this way — some forced to swim,
others stroked latex on window trim —
this time, I grabbed a twig,
dipped it in, scooped coated spider
to cupped palm of withered hand.
Garden hose set on drip, I rinsed
her whiteness black again.
*Copyright 2011 by Timothy Pilgrim. Placard design by Egress Studio.